wowsers!
Posted by shawnamarie at 09:56 PM on November 2, 2005.
i guess i should post. Alot has gone on. First off i am sick of work. Both Byron and Deb got layed off.... so they have been home everyday since the beginning of september. It is the most irritating thing. It is hard to explain. It is like you see too much of some people.. not necessarily too much.... just too much of certain qualities. For example im sick of seeing Byron lay around in his underwear all day while snacking on slurpees and penny candy while playing computer games. And Debs voice and the way she absent mindedly lives her day. I could rant for ever about this thing. But all i can do now is keep my chin up and work for two more months. Something good must come out of this. Another rant thing.... MY GEOGRAPHY TEACHER. MY GOD. He is this really old tall black guy with a really deep accent. We had a test ( which he didn't prepare us for)... he brings them in the next class andhas us mark them for him... :|. He was going to remark them and give them back to us last class... but oops! he didn't!! So we wasted a whole class marking them and still no marks. GRRR!. I feel that lately im filled with a lot of rage but none ofit really comes out.... its not driving me insane.... yet. ANOTHER THING. My Mom. We have been fighting alot lately. She has told me that she has no respect for me because i have no respect for her. But tell me something.... how do you pay resepct for someone who wont treat you the same in return? .... And i dont know why i should pay respect for her ( yes i know shes my mother and she gains respect inthat aspect), but recentally she has just turned into this childish idiot on a powertrip ( i called her a nasty bitch to her face). I dunno i know this is just going to die off... but at the same time i wish i could just get her to stop completly by shutting her up and actually showing her what hurts me.arg whatever. Mathew just came online :D:D:D:D:D. now the rest of my post is going to be happy!!! We are talking about moving to burnaby together
... OH YEAH! matt got a new job at parkshore BMW working as sort of a helper int he shop and then eventually becoming an apprentice. I am so happy for him. <3 We have been together for 2 years and just over a month :O :|. I have been spending alot of money lately and mostly on one thing... my cat. Denver decided to get into a fight and get an absess :| 200 dollars later he has a cone around his neck and a strip on purple stitches. It was actually kinda cute. I love him to death even if he spends a paycheck with his overdose of testosterone. wow im getting really developed in my typing... must be school...pshhh yeah right. My spelling hasn't improved.... haha. ANYWAYS, speaking of damaged kitties, joey isn't doing so well himself. He blew his cruciate ligament. Which means that he leg is now two parts instead of one. He is only walking on three legs. The vet said that it had to do with his weight
so hes on a diet now. Poor chubby. We have two options.... surgery or just letting it go. If we let it go theres a risk of him getting early onset arthritis... but hes 8... so its not that much of a concern. The surgery isn't that successful... and if they do one leg it is likely that his other will blow.....plus the surgery is over 1000 depending on who we use.so yeah i think we are just going to leave him, evenutally he will walk again and we will give himj glucosamine to rebuild fluid in his joints. I am pretty tired right now... tired and sore! i had a bunch of things to say but i just suddenly for got them!!so i guess ill update another time.... when i remember. Until then... i love you mathew.
Happy birthday my love
Posted by shawnamarie at 08:27 PM on August 23, 2005.
mwah!
today is mathews birthday but sadly i can't see him
But i will tomorrow!!!
hes 21... and im 19... ee i have a ways to go! and when im 21 he will be 23! ee! haha anyways i am rambling. SOOO i got my nose peirced! Its a little pink stud. Amanda got one too in blue.
I got it in victoria. Matt and i went on a little vacation there. We had a really good itme but i really wish it was longer
well that is all for now!
au revoir!
Another 24 hours.
Posted by shawnamarie at 08:28 PM on August 15, 2005.
Rwar!
i feel like postin' so im a postin'
Not much has been happening.... actaullyy alot has. I am all registered and set for kwantlen in septemer. I even have my books. The semester only cost me $246 because i cashed in my scholarship. I got my books today and they were 210. So im pretty happy, but next semester is going to be bad
I am going to be paying for two more courses. I am only doing three this time around. My mom is going ot be covering for me on thursdays at work. This shoudl be interesting
. At work, I am having devyn a few days a week, and its hell. Well its not too bad, they just dont like each other. TOmorrow they start swim lessons. I am going ot have to leave like an hour in advance to get there, and the place is like across the street.
Sabine started to walk and its sooo weird, and cute at the same time. I started taking care of her when she first started to sit up, so she has come a long way. I have been waiting for this for a long time. I can't wait for her to say shawna. She can say mamama, dadada, and gengen. I would be happy with a nawnaw. :D. OH yeah! i bought a laptop, and an ipod. ee im a big spender. I relaly have to watch how much a spend now. I need to slow down justtt a litttleee. So yeah this will be good for school though. My grandma bought me a laptop backpack and its realllyy nice. Matt helped me pick it out
. Speaking of matt! its his birthday in a week! My baby will be twenty
! We might be going to Victoria this weekend, that will be really nice. I was kinda hoping of going somewhere big like seatlle or seaside but i guess that can wait. Hey maybe christmas break will work! Matt is doing really well with his job. I love it when he gets excited over a car he drove and how hard he works, im sure he will pass his prohibition with flying colours
. Last week i went to the gym 5 times!!. I relaly want to try to keep up with that. Its time that i lose the last ten pounds. I have been just mataining my weight, but i really just want to get down to my desired weight now. If i do then that will be like 20 pounds lost! I have been doing lots of thinking lately of my future and my past. Its been fun. Today Byron was telling me about some 15 yearold boy at childrens hospital. He was held down by two male nurses, two cops and two security guards. He overdoesed on something, probally meth. Byron was joking around saying that when he left the hospital would they give him a balloon that said i od'ed with a sad face? The nurse there said that they get people as young as tweleve coming in with that sort of thing. Its really sad that someone that young can be so irresponsible. I look back at highschool and remember that by grade 11 about 60% of my grade did some sort of drug, and by grade 12 i was hearing of almost everyone i knew doing it... so im sure it was up to like 80%. The way that Byron was talking to me was like he had no idea what it was like in Tsawwassen. He called it a sleepy town and was surprised to run into a courple 14 yearolds smoking up. I think like once every few weeks i see someone younger than me stoned, It is really a serious problem here and i didn't realize it until now. But i guess it is to be expected in this sort of situation. It is the same with drinking but i dont think it is as bad as the drug use here. It makes me want to live somewhere else. Yes i know tha ti was one of them, and i dont really regret it that much. I am just glad that the fad passed me quickly. Most people i know are still users. I wouldn't even consider doing it now. I have too much going for me to fuck it up. The only year tha ti didn't earn scholarship money was the year that i was caught up in that shit. Especially entering college there is no way that im going to screw this up.ANYYYWAYYYS, i still like my ciders. mmm... but not fireball!! yuck! although... im sure it would be really good on icecream. :|
uhh yeah!
so what else is new!!
Matt bought a ps2!! he got gt4 and its really good. I always wanted one and now im jelous
.My sister and mom want to get their noses peirced. I relaly think i would suit it the most. Thats why im considering it. I was also thinking of a tatoo. But i think i would just rather design it than actually put it on my body, i like doing things like that. I like to be pure. A piercing is nothing because it comes right out and you can barely see the hole. If i got a tatoo it would be of a capricorn. It represents me... and also my love for mathew. I know that i will be with matt forever.. but if something were to happen i dont know how i would feel about that ink on my body. But i guess thats the idea behind a tatoo
Its with you forever no matter what. I know that i woudln't want to get it on my lower back because that is so faddy. EVERY girl has a tatoo there. SO i would want mine on my shoulder blade. I was thinking of putting one sort of on my hip to the righ tof my belly button... but then i was like SHIT! im having kids and that would fuck it up!! hehe.
eee im sure typing a lot!!
But i guess i dont have that much more to talk about.The most important thing in my life is my Mathew. I do not know where i would be with out him right now. It has almost been two years... two out of 10000000000000000. :D
I love you lover boy. RWAR!
-Shawna.
RWAR!
Posted by shawnamarie at 08:46 PM on July 19, 2005.
did i scare you?
mwhahah i hope so.
ahem
aaaaannnnyyyyyywayyyyyys
I just finished some baked beans and rice cakes. mmmmm so good.
now im talking to matttyy.
Today my dad picked me up a kwantlen calendar so i can figure out which courses to take. My registration date is August 10th and 10:00.
sooooo i gotta get crackin at that.
At work i am looking after Devyn now. At first i thought she was a real pain in the ass. But now i have realised that she is just like me ( or was like me when i was little). She has the red hair and the bitchy attitude...... and shes artistic. So yeah im finding it easier to work with her now that ive found her. Thats usually the way it is for me. Its hard to see eye to eye with a kid unless i find a bit of them in me. Then i know their thinking and feel like i can comunicate better with them. Its harder with Sabine of course... bu tin a way its easy because we both look at the older kids in silence and go shut the fuck up ( when they are fighting ). I relaly think i shoudl start a journal of just things i notice with the kids, their development and such. I think it would relaly come in handy later with my studies. And its intreseting to look back at things that were and were not happening. Gen also says a shit load of funny things. For instance the other day this was our conversation:
Gen : Sauna i need to tell you something.
Me: Whats that
Gen: Notice that after you are a babysitter you are going to get really old and have kids. I am too but im going to have kids, THEN be a baby sitter.
Me: People usually are baby sitters first, then they have kids.
Gen: Not me. You are going to have two kids, and name them Genevieve and Sabine ok?
Me: OK, ill do that .
Gen: Maybe you will have twins!
Me: I dont want twins! i want a boy and a girl.
Gen: YOU GET WHAT YOU GET SAUNA!! thats the way it is, get it?
Keep in mind she just turned four and her speach is really good so its really cute.
HMMM so yeah nothing else is new.
I love you matt!
just thought id throw that in
bye!
eee!!!
Posted by shawnamarie at 07:20 PM on July 4, 2005.
well well
Its been over a month since i last updated! Matt told me to.
I guess a few things have happened but not much. The most important is tha tmatt got a job at MCL motors. Im so happy for him.. and proud of course
Things are definatly looking up.
I applied and got accepted to Kwantlen. So i think i will be starting there in September.I really want ot move in with matt
but with me starting school i dont think it will work. So im planning on doing so when i start at SFU in two years if all goes as planned. Sabine is starting to walk and its really cute. Gen is as talkative as ever. Her birthday is in a few days. And on that day im going to see ALANIS!!! im so excited. I think its so neat how im seeing her ten years later.Im such a good fan
I think that devon is coming down from edmonton to see her so that shoudl be fun. IM sitll working on losing weight. SInce March i think ive lost between 10-15 pounds. My goal is an extra 5 by the end of summer. I have been a running machine lately. In fact im going to go for one after this entry. My mom and sister and Grandma are going up to Prince George thursday night and coming hom on the tuesday. So that will be good. I can only spend so much time around that terrible two. I have been sleeping weird these past few days. Having strange episodes where im sleeping but still doing things... like talking and answering phones.
Matt and I are still deeply in love. It will be two yeaars on September 19th. I couldnt' imagine life without him. We were meant for each other .
I love you Matt
byebye
